Self Love for the New Year!

This topic is probably not appropriate for a blog, but here I go anyway. This last Saturday I was having one of those days. You know the kind where you feel like your a complete loser and you can't accomplish anything. I feel like this a little bit after every new year. I dont know if I really miss Christmas or what. The house was a complete pit and was wondering how it got this bad once again. I do try to clean a couple of hours a day. But this was going to take a few days of a major overhall. I also felt depressed about eating to much. I feel like I've worked really hard to lose weight, but cant seemingly lose the last 20 pounds. I always seem to sabotage myself. To top it off my daughter had just come in from our neighbors house and told me she wished our house was like the Toolson's because there mom was so nice and there house was always so organized and smelt good. (I do like the Toolson's a lot by the way) Our cat had also pooped somewhere upstairs. yipee. I listened to her and resisted my you too could have a clean house that smelt good speech, if you put away your shoes etc. I went for a run instead. When I was almost done I started thinking about what I had to do when I got home and how things possibly might be worse, because the kids had friends over. I couldn't help but feel like this song that came on my i-pod, (that's on my playlist now) was a tender mercy from Heavenly Father. I began to cry and realized I had been reading my scriptures and praying, but it was more like going through the motions. I also realized that with all my faults (messy house, untrained children etc.) Heavenly Father loves me, but I a lot of time dont really love myself. My self-esteem is based on how others feel about me. So here to my New Years resolution, I'm going to truly try to love myself this year. Not the kind where you think your better than other people, but the kind that Heavenly Father would want me to have. The kind that makes me special just because I'm his daughter. I know we are all here on earth to figure out how we're supposed to help others. So how about you, self love this year?